grrrr

so what the fuck is up.

lol nah but my dudes and dudettes! im freaking out and i dont have no one to talk to about this kind of craap. but maybe if i write about it, ill relief myself from this stressful headache!

im not one to talk about my situations in my home to like strangers, but then again i dont knooooow you what do you care lol as long as you listen(:

okay so lets begin with the fact that i have an almost two year old and shes cray. then i have a 4 month old baby who is chill but gets crazy when her sister bugs her. now khloe, i love, shes funny and smart and all she wants to do is love and color(everywhere). im young as fuck tho so it isnt easy for me to adjust and put all my attention on one baby. NOW that shit is complicated, i remember when it was just khloe it was so easy kuz i had time for myself and now i dont kind of because its khloe then ariel then me then alex then khloe then ariel, and it just goes on and on. but my solution well elmers and i solution is that he watches them in the mornings, i sleep do my thing, then he gets ready for work and i get ready to watch le babies. then at night the babies are sleeping and i have time to spend with elmer who is on the xbox-.-

THEN
i havent had sex in forever! not because i dont get it but by the time its time to go to sleep im so out of it not in the mood let alone i feel gross as fuck because im gaining so much weight and you can tell and see it on my double CHIN and UGH i just dont ever want to have sex unless im looking beastly sexy lmao maybe tonight i shud like do some sit ups shave my legs do my makeup and maybe get it in! maybe thats the reason why im being so mean now that i think about it.

sex is not a touchy subject guys come on, were all adults we all know whats it about and most of my readers have kids so i hope your not like wtf is she talking about, no stop that rhaaan.

lets get it in tonight! but before then
which seems like forever till then, i just have to stay away from talking shit to people. ive been so fuckin mean lmao paola knows and lets not bring elmer into this situation... lol

BUT you mudafuckas know that ish is normal as fuck.. everyone gets stressed out not everyone has sex everyday not everyone has two kids or more and is like floating on a fuckin cloud. shits stressful. and it happens its fuckin LIFE. thats why i love elmer kuz he understands me. well i have to tell him in detail why i am acting this why but he always knows theirs a reason. he is cool he just lets me be a bitch but if i go to far he is like jlshdcvbjwhbdcjdh NO. lol

let alone bills, money, food, clothes, diapers, house supplies, baby supplies, our humanly supplies, cell phone bill, we have a fuckin car that has a cracked radiator and needs an oil change and some other shit that i dont understand about cars that we have to pay for let alone go pay for registration and insurance. were gunna be left with no fuckin money! and we were supposed to fuckin save our tax money. almost 2000$ out the door. i wish i didnt have to get a car gosh darn it. then im like maybe if we got a newer car we wouldnt be dealing with cracked raidiators nd shit or whatever else is wrong with it. but all cars are the same i guess. i cant wait to get a new car already, i want my lincoln mini suv!

                                  
isnt she a beaut! i love her i either want her in black or gold. so sexy lol and let alone spacious!

i regret not getting a car out the dealer but right now we cant afford monthly payments so next year will be good. this car will still be hot idc idc idc i love it; my aunt has one and its GREAT.

anyways please guys if im being a bitch please understand my situation, i am not really a bitch i just have real man problems to deal with and its a bitch. love everyone and everything im sorry too for the flowers i ran over the other day that was an accident lol ugh gotta go!

ttyl<3